Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
OK, here's the long story
It's been a month since the last time I post already?
Time really goes quickly.
Sorry for those who wanted to see my new posts.
Anyway, I'm here to do what I promised.
The long story.
Let's start from my 6th grade.
I got a very good friend, I was impressed by his wide range of knowledge, and we stick together a lot, since we live in the same neighbourhood. We were both top students in the class, both the teachers' favourite. Sadly, he turned...... is it evil or bad? Hanging around with gang members in the school, smoking, running away from school, and so on. Obviously, he became teachers' favourite no more, but since I didn't change, I still remain the same position. Drowned by envy, he forced me to behave worse than I had been, with violence. I had a previous memory when I was in kindergarten that I fought a classmate and went over rage and ended in biting flesh off his nose. Being aware what I could do when I'm involved into fights, I didn't fight back, not even once. I obeyed, hoping for minimum damage inflicted on me. That's when I stopped trusting human, the whole specie. Ironically lucky, this happened on my 9th grade, I only suffered that life for a year. But due to my worse behavior, such as doing less homework than what I was supposed to(this became habitat, and still haunts me), and intentionally score low, I did a really awful job in the high school entering exam, ending up in a vocational school, which provides worse education than normal high schools.
So I went to this worse school, with my distrust to mankind. I stopped socializing, reducing the amount of conversation to minimum, hoping not to repeat what happened in my middle school. It worked extremely well, but it also blocked anyone from getting near me, since I would mostly not respond. I was pretty happy that I won't be betrayed like last time at first, but soon I begin to feel extremely lonely. I started to want to talk to someone, to exchange thoughts, but finding it impossibly difficult. Because of my previous attitude, and the way of getting along with others, I seemed to forget how to communicate. Trapped in the lonely hell I created for myself, I felt desperation. Every story has a turning point, mine happened at a party held by our class teacher. As usual, I stuffed myself at the quiet corner, but hoping someone would come. Apparently, everyone was happy enough not to see me in my corner. I took a sip of drink, tried to get myself drunk (well, being drunk is mainly a mental status, so it can be manipulated intentionally, I think). At that moment, a voice I wouldn't forget for years appeared:"Why don't you join us?" She was there, right under a light bulb. From that moment on, I strongly dought the saying of :"angels are good-looking", because she's not. I thought I saw an angel. "I, eh, I don't know how." It's already hard for me to talk to girls because of my characteristic, and the lack of communicating skill at that time made it even worse. "You just didn't try, come on." A soft, but frim grab, lead me to the crowd. It's not common that Chinese have body contact with each other, especially when it comes to different genders. From that day on, she became my best friend, and there's a sense of something, either love or gratefulness.
Time really goes quickly.
Sorry for those who wanted to see my new posts.
Anyway, I'm here to do what I promised.
The long story.
Let's start from my 6th grade.
I got a very good friend, I was impressed by his wide range of knowledge, and we stick together a lot, since we live in the same neighbourhood. We were both top students in the class, both the teachers' favourite. Sadly, he turned...... is it evil or bad? Hanging around with gang members in the school, smoking, running away from school, and so on. Obviously, he became teachers' favourite no more, but since I didn't change, I still remain the same position. Drowned by envy, he forced me to behave worse than I had been, with violence. I had a previous memory when I was in kindergarten that I fought a classmate and went over rage and ended in biting flesh off his nose. Being aware what I could do when I'm involved into fights, I didn't fight back, not even once. I obeyed, hoping for minimum damage inflicted on me. That's when I stopped trusting human, the whole specie. Ironically lucky, this happened on my 9th grade, I only suffered that life for a year. But due to my worse behavior, such as doing less homework than what I was supposed to(this became habitat, and still haunts me), and intentionally score low, I did a really awful job in the high school entering exam, ending up in a vocational school, which provides worse education than normal high schools.
So I went to this worse school, with my distrust to mankind. I stopped socializing, reducing the amount of conversation to minimum, hoping not to repeat what happened in my middle school. It worked extremely well, but it also blocked anyone from getting near me, since I would mostly not respond. I was pretty happy that I won't be betrayed like last time at first, but soon I begin to feel extremely lonely. I started to want to talk to someone, to exchange thoughts, but finding it impossibly difficult. Because of my previous attitude, and the way of getting along with others, I seemed to forget how to communicate. Trapped in the lonely hell I created for myself, I felt desperation. Every story has a turning point, mine happened at a party held by our class teacher. As usual, I stuffed myself at the quiet corner, but hoping someone would come. Apparently, everyone was happy enough not to see me in my corner. I took a sip of drink, tried to get myself drunk (well, being drunk is mainly a mental status, so it can be manipulated intentionally, I think). At that moment, a voice I wouldn't forget for years appeared:"Why don't you join us?" She was there, right under a light bulb. From that moment on, I strongly dought the saying of :"angels are good-looking", because she's not. I thought I saw an angel. "I, eh, I don't know how." It's already hard for me to talk to girls because of my characteristic, and the lack of communicating skill at that time made it even worse. "You just didn't try, come on." A soft, but frim grab, lead me to the crowd. It's not common that Chinese have body contact with each other, especially when it comes to different genders. From that day on, she became my best friend, and there's a sense of something, either love or gratefulness.
Monday, February 16, 2009
nice snow
My dad, with the golden retriever
Me, trying to pitch the snowball to the box I drew earlier on the wall~~
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My uncle, and his faithful dogs.
My mom, with her niece (actually her niece-in-law......)
Too bad, there's not a single scene where my aunt and my grandma appears.
We didn't have much snow back in Shanghai, where I lived for 19 years in China. Maybe it's just too humid. There were only two heavy snows in my memory. I missed one by going to Japan last year, and the other one broght me a pretty well memory.
2004, the first year I leave middle school and get in the vocational school. Because of something happened in my senior years in middle school, I shutted my self from the public, then a girl in the class rescued me from the lonely hell I made for myself (this is a long story, I'll tell it in another post later). She became my best friend.
It was Christmas(or Christmas eve, can't remember so well) , one ordinary school day in China, when all classes ended, we headed back to the dorms, and suddenly found that it is covered with snow outside, and almost everyone was playing with snow, even the staffs. Being kids, and especially kids in Shanghai, we just couldn't resist the fun. It became one of my best memories in years.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
title
After 2 weeks' engwr 300 class, I seem to meet a pretty big problem.
It all starts with the first reading response assignment. I read the assigned paragraphs, understanded well with the help of the mighty online dictionary, understanded the topic I should write on perfectly, and got stuck with the actual work.
I have almost no experience in America. I'm not familiar with the American culture, I'm not familiar with the American politic structure, I'm not familiar with the American history, I'm...... eh, I'm not an American (at least right now).
The quickwrite on the Super Bowl topic struck me harder. Sadly I've never been near the field of American football. All I know is the two teams are trying to take the ball and go past the line while preventing the other to do so, that's all. So I was just literally sitting there doing nothing.
Here comes my cry for help: anyone have any idea for me to be part of the whole enviroment in a quicker way? I know accumulation is a must for it, just looking for a faster way.
I don't usually ask for such a thing as a comment, but I need your advice in it.
Thank You
It all starts with the first reading response assignment. I read the assigned paragraphs, understanded well with the help of the mighty online dictionary, understanded the topic I should write on perfectly, and got stuck with the actual work.
I have almost no experience in America. I'm not familiar with the American culture, I'm not familiar with the American politic structure, I'm not familiar with the American history, I'm...... eh, I'm not an American (at least right now).
The quickwrite on the Super Bowl topic struck me harder. Sadly I've never been near the field of American football. All I know is the two teams are trying to take the ball and go past the line while preventing the other to do so, that's all. So I was just literally sitting there doing nothing.
Here comes my cry for help: anyone have any idea for me to be part of the whole enviroment in a quicker way? I know accumulation is a must for it, just looking for a faster way.
I don't usually ask for such a thing as a comment, but I need your advice in it.
Thank You
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
notice
This blog contains heavy meaningless and un-understandable language (like the so-called "word" in front of "language") and absolutely bad "humor" (as the author thinks it is).
Read only when you have nothing better to do than to look for literally anything to kill the time.
If your time is still preciouse as money, look for a button somewhere on the top right of the window with white cross on a red background, click after you see it.
Thanks for your copration.
Read only when you have nothing better to do than to look for literally anything to kill the time.
If your time is still preciouse as money, look for a button somewhere on the top right of the window with white cross on a red background, click after you see it.
Thanks for your copration.
all right, some explainations
First, let's talk about the blog's weird name.
This is a very brief translation with the help of an internet dictionary (many thanks to yahoo) from the blog I already have. As you might guessed, it's in Chinese.
Secondly, the even more weird URL.
That's the Pinyin (no worries, the explaination of the vocabulary will be presented soon) of the name of my other blog.
As to the word Pinyin, explaination may be very tedious, anyone who hasn't the patience can just go with "a status of a Chinese word".
Here it comes.
There are two systems in modern Chinese: one for the pronounciation (please correct my spelling, I'm not very diligent with dictionaries), the other for the presentation (for vision). The system used for the pronounciation is called Pinyin, and the system used for the presentation is called Hanzi. People everywhere mess up the Kanji, which belongs to Japanese, with Hanzi, which, as I just explained, belonges to Chinese. There's nothing to blame, since the Japanese actually developed their visual presentation system for words from ours (felling proud of being a Chiese~). There're two types of Hanzi used nowadays: simplified Chinese and traditional Chinese, but as to most Chinese, the simplified one is used in daily life. Only a small part of China (such as Hong Kong and Taiwan, and yes, Taiwan is part of China, a part which can't and shouldn't be parted from China) still use the traditional ones officially.
OK, so much for the babbling background information and explainations.
This is a very brief translation with the help of an internet dictionary (many thanks to yahoo) from the blog I already have. As you might guessed, it's in Chinese.
Secondly, the even more weird URL.
That's the Pinyin (no worries, the explaination of the vocabulary will be presented soon) of the name of my other blog.
As to the word Pinyin, explaination may be very tedious, anyone who hasn't the patience can just go with "a status of a Chinese word".
Here it comes.
There are two systems in modern Chinese: one for the pronounciation (please correct my spelling, I'm not very diligent with dictionaries), the other for the presentation (for vision). The system used for the pronounciation is called Pinyin, and the system used for the presentation is called Hanzi. People everywhere mess up the Kanji, which belongs to Japanese, with Hanzi, which, as I just explained, belonges to Chinese. There's nothing to blame, since the Japanese actually developed their visual presentation system for words from ours (felling proud of being a Chiese~). There're two types of Hanzi used nowadays: simplified Chinese and traditional Chinese, but as to most Chinese, the simplified one is used in daily life. Only a small part of China (such as Hong Kong and Taiwan, and yes, Taiwan is part of China, a part which can't and shouldn't be parted from China) still use the traditional ones officially.
OK, so much for the babbling background information and explainations.
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